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Unread 02-23-2018, 05:53 AM
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Default Choline, porn addiction, stuck thoughts, and later depression

Hi,

After getting more into weightlifting, I took the advice around here and in general to up my protein and omega 3 intake. Some interesting things happened...

I developed a porn addiction. I would watch for hours, where as previously only 10 minutes or so. And I developed fetishes I never had before. And whilst watching had very euphoric feelings which Iíve never had before. I also became very panicky, little things felt like major disasters in the heat of the moment. Also, I would worry about something, which at the time felt like big issues and it would be in the front of my mind and annoy me all day. And then I would move onto another worry, and then looking back at the previous worry, I was like why was I worried about that? Itís not even an issue. How can My thinking change like that? These worries usually centre around my insecurities and existential angst. Other issues were cold hands, acne, and hemmeroids. I've not had mental health issues before, so all these thoughts are troubling.


A weird thing I noticed, so this one worry was driving me crazy all week. These worries donít really have solutions just I keep feeling like something is wrong. and I remember binging on porn for 4 hours. And after ejaculating, the worries were no longer problems. Like, I thought to myself, why were you even thinking about this stuff before. Itís a non issue. What is that? Again, none of this happened to before.

Ok, so another forum someone mentioned choline and Hypersexuality. So I stopped taking fish oil, no eggs and reduced my protein intake from 180g to 60-90g. After around a week, no more crazy sex drive, no fetishes, no more cold hands, intense panic gone. Without any effort the addiction was gone. I thought I was sorted. I still had worry issues though. I would still make mountains out of molehills and only a week later realise I was worrying about nothing.

A few months later, and then I fell into a deep depression. Totally adhenoic, like whatís the point in doing anything. Hardly sleeping. Couldnít be bothered to go to the gym, my most favourite past time. Worries that just never go away. This has happened 3 times over a year since a change in diet. When Iím a depressive state, I end up binging on porn and that seems to pull me out of the depression in the last 3 instances?? I also noticed that after the depression ended, my heart rate during cardio is a whole 30 bps lower than usual for a week or so and then over the weeks the heart rate during cardio goes up. Any link there?

Also during my first depressive episode, I took tyrosine a week before I came out of it. And I remember the day when I felt better. I felt really good, gym session was great, music was great. And I cried in the shower out of relief because I felt like the old me. Felt like a real bounce in terms on mood. Which Iíve never felt before. Again any links there? And was in a great mood for a few months after that. Made a lot of positive changes. until the next depressive episodes in a couple of months.

Anyways, anyone know whatís wrong with me and how to fix it? I have a feeling that although the addiction is over, the excessive porn use may have left me with some issues. Iím not a no fap guy or anything btw. But I hear a lot of dopamine related issues, but Iím not well versed in this area. Currently in a depressed state for the past 6 weeks. Also I want to fix this because I donít want to be in the same position in 3 months time. Maybe again, its diet related?

Sincerely thank you for responses.
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Unread 02-23-2018, 10:23 AM
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Protein and w-3 were not the problem.
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Unread 02-23-2018, 10:41 AM
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What did I just read?
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If you're not trolling (which I doubt), please visit a therapist. Mental health is just as important as physical.
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If you're not trolling (which I doubt), please visit a therapist. Mental health is just as important as physical.
More so. Someone with arthritis and heart disease doesn't usually shoot up a high school.
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More so. Someone with arthritis and heart disease doesn't usually shoot up a high school.
Indeed.

Altough mental and physical health are not mutually exclusive. Poor mental health=poor physical health in many situations (and probably vice versa). They say exercise is good for depression. But the last thing you want to do while depressed is exercising.
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Y'all need jesus
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Y'all need jesus
Jesus saves.
Moses invests.
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Jesus saves.
Moses invests.
Who does the usury then?
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Who does the usury then?
Payday loan companies based on Indian reservations in the Dakotas.

Also, Jooz.
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